I need something to calm myself down when interacting with certain people(crushes included here).
Sometimes I'm so calm, and I could say whatever I want, but most of the time, there's a wave of emotions hitting my chest and neck. Possibly also some blood pressure increase in the brain, if I recall correctly. I can't hold my smile anymore, I can't control my face muscles easily, words won't flow as easy as before, even walking becomes a bit irregular, as I start to feel my legs less in control, and so on.
This destroys my confidence, and makes me more introvert, wanting to avoid such situations from happening again, so less social interactions.
I know the theory, that all of this has deep roots in brain's memories from the past, moments that you, as a person, felt awkward while interacting with others, etc; and in order to overcome it, think positive and try to remember more "glorious" moments, while interacting with others, so that your brain will somehow forget and "un-wire" those memories.
I need to understand why is this happening, what happens in the brain, what supplements/pills could I try in order to reduce it, etc.
I'm approaching 30's, and it's kind of late to think that this can be solved naturally, just by interacting more, until I'd become "numb" to these emotions. I've lived almost half of my life already.
Why I don't think that a psychologist could help me? I don't know, I'd see myself there being a bit nervous for the first sessions, then after a while, I get used to the person, and the emotions disappear. But then, if there's someone new, or someone new that I'd like a lot, I'd be back to square zero, filled with those pesky emotions inside my brain, chest, neck, legs, etc.